my cheeleng substitute

cheeleng slept over last night. although, she did not hv the face i wanted to wake up seeing, she did not hv the breath tt i wanted to hear throughout the night, she did not hv the skin i wanted to come into contact with, it was nice to hv someone to tide me through yet another lonely night. lying side-by-side, she made the darkness of my bedroom seem bearable. she made the coldness of the night seem slightly better.

as we girly-talked till the wee hours in the morning, i hv come to a conclusion tt she is the best thing tt has come out of tis whole relationship flop. the common topics, the understanding n the tears we shared kept me going till today. mayb its coz we noe exactly how the other is feeling, redundant qns like, "u still love him ar?" n insensitive remarks like, "move on" is spared. i nv felt so at ease talking to someone bcoz the both of us hv achieved a balance between space n comforting presence.

tts why, i hate it when YOU did things w/o a concern in the world n with little regard for another human's feelings. i hate it when ur stupid wrds hurt her n made her cry even more. i dun like to see ppl i love cry. heck, i dun even like seeing them in dilemma which is why i'm not even trying to pursue my own happiness. i dun wanna attempt to read future anymore so pls dun tell me abt "our future", coz the only future i wan is a future with him. impossible as it may seem, its a dream tt seems so real.